A New Poem

My Fevered Dream
For Daniel

If I could open up my soul
A shining light that blinds the sun
And in my bliss devour you whole
I would, my love
I would.

Do not be afraid of how
For you my black heart burns.
A flame so hot it sears the flesh
A fevered dream
And you the cause and cure.

Beyond the bounds of ego’s reign
Beyond all time and sense
Between the worlds we dance and kiss
I am captured
It is useless to resist.

A fly in amber stopped in time
as my heart skips a beat
my soul ensnared within your eyes
A dream…
from which I hope to never wake.




Chas went out dancing tonight with Daniel. He just called a little bit ago and said that our car got broken into… smashed the window and tore through the glove compartment. We really didn’t have anything of value in it. Maybe some CDs. I’m surprised that they didn’t take the stereo, though. I’m waiting for them to come home now… hopefully it wont be too bad.

The Perfect Date

I got home a couple hours ago from the most perfect evening. Went and picked him up at his work and then back to his place for some quality time that included Buffy the Vampire Slayer video gaming, as well as lots of kissing, cuddling, and other forms of bonding hotness. Then out to grab some food, and then to see Spider-Man 2. We had plenty of alone time in the theatre before the show to talk and laugh and smile, and during the show we held hands, cuddled, and often took time to look into each others eyes… I swear I was beaming the whole night. After I took him home I drove back to my place on cloud 9…

I am very happy right now… A state of bliss inside of which eternity exists.

My (not so) Secret F(a)eri(e) Page

After discussing it with other initiates, I have decided to make the information and art that was on my secret Feri page, available to the public. Now, all of my non-oathbound Feri materials can be found on one page: HERE.

I had originally wanted it to be a community building tool just for initiates and students of Feri, but have come to realize that there are many, many others who have no such “official” connection and who could possibly benefit from a little more Feri stuff. The many requests that I have received from interested seekers were moving and respectful. There are so many individuals who long for Feri study, but who have no access to an initiate/teacher in their area. Perhaps this little bit of art and lore will be able to tide them over until they can study proper.

Disclaimer: For the Feri-fundamentalists out there I should point out that I have not revealed anything that was oathbound in my line, and I will not do so. But keep in mind that there is actually very little in Feri that is officially secret, and those secrets do not (and will not) appear anywhere in my public work. If you have a problem with something that I have posted, please email me to talk about it. I doubt I will take it down, but I’m always open to the discussion.